For those of you that know me, I don't cry or show when I'm struggling and desperate for help. Recently, however, more people have seen me at my lowest and have amazingly accepted me. Growing up I felt like (and still do) I always had to be perfect. I read an article the other day about how we, as Christians, are told to be an example. It talked about how we don't need to be an example, but to be ourselves. As I was reading it I realized that I have been trying so hard to live this "perfect Christian" life, and because of it I am making life much harder on myself than it should be. I don't have to be perfect. I don't even have to prove myself. But what I do have to do is be honest with myself and the people around me. In the blog it said, "she isn't supposed to be an example. Her friends don't need an example, they need a
friend." Friends are honest with each other and accepting when we feel like nobody else is. They are there to help pick us up when we're down and encourage us to keep going when we feel like we can't anymore. I don't want to be perfect. I want to be relatable for the people around me so they can see Jesus. I want them to know that the reason I have a smile on my face is because of what He did for me. I don't want to pretend to be perfect or happy
all the time. Its exhausting pretending you're perfect. It's hard to be an example. I want to show my friends that I'm broken too and I need help just as much as they do. I've had a "mask" on since mid-December and honestly, I'm tired of wearing it. So this is me saying, "I'm struggling and I'm not afraid to show it. Here's the
real me" and praying that my friends will love me through the brokenness.
www.chattingatthesky.com/2013/05/13/one-thing-your-daughter-doesnt-need-you-to-say/
